Is There Love Without Pain

It is not about you now, it’s about me
It’s about the troubles and the sorrow I see
For eight years I have tried to conquer the chaos inside

It is not about you now, it’s about me
When will the day come when I can be free
You could never imagine the pain you have inflicted
On someone that loves you and once was gifted

It is not about you now, it’s about me
How can I go forward when my heart is in the past
The healing has not started because only pain is what lasts

It is not about you now, it’s about me
You must have thought I would be guiltless and free
Or did you even think of me

It’s about me now but I am no longer me
When you put the gun to your heart you killed me too

I am your little sister and now the mother of your son
The irony is that I am dead inside trying to keep your memory alive