Letting Tracy go

Ok, this is a very last minute idea to create this blog and pour out my soul; but I have to do it.

June 10, 1999 my sister killed herself and since that day I have lived a very different life. My psychiatrist told me to write her a letter and tell her all the things on my mind and this will help me let go but I am to the point that I would rather have never known my sister then to feel such pain. I am considering electro-shock therapy.